Just some ramblings for today.
BS was 494 this morning. *sigh* My morning BSs are always high. I suppose the fact that when I wake up in the early morning hours to pee (which is most nights) I always have a funny taste in my mouth and have to take a bite of something (usually sweet) before going back to bed has a pretty big hand in that. This morning it was a bite of a glazed donut…just one bite but I also drank some milk with it. But really? 494 after one bite of donut? Sometimes I want to rip my pancreas out just so I can scream at it and ask it why it refuses to work properly.
It might also help if I would take my Lantus (I always feel like I’m going to say Mylanta) but I never really do. I was initially supposed to take it at night, which seems to be the norm, but I would wake up around the time I pee when my BS is high…but instead of having to pee I’d wake up shaking and sweating because my sugar was low. I hate lows. They’re quite possibly the worst feeling in the world. My doctor suggested I break the Lantus down into two shots a day. That didn’t work either so I started taking it in the morning. That seemed to stop the overnight lows but I still don’t like taking it at all. I’m always paranoid (probably 100% without reason) that if I take it and find myself too busy or out somewhere I won’t be able to eat when I should and my sugar will drop. So instead I inject a ton of Novolog when I eat.
Speaking of lows, why do I find it impossible to eat something small and give it a few minutes for my blood sugar to react? Instead I grab whatever sweet thing is quick (candy, cake, pop tarts, cereal, etc.) and start shovelling it in and don’t stop until I feel more normal. That of course results in sending my BS way too high.
Another problem I’ve run into is when taking insulin my BS would never be down to where it should be two hours after eating but within about four or five hours after my BS would drop really low. I haven’t been having nearly as much of a problem with this recently but I’m not sure why I ever did or why I’m not now.
I guess that’s about it for now. My husband works nights so I have to go wake him up so he can get ready and leave. And I really need to be doing some cleaning. Anybody got some motivation to share?
November 30, 2008 at 7:08 pm
Have just finished reading both of your blog posts, and even though I do not know you, I am worried for your health and long term problems. I had the “fuck it” attitude years ago when I left one endo and tried two others then went for many years trying to control my own destiny. I have been with the same doc now since 1989 when I met him for the first time in the ER. My BG was pushing 800. I generally will do ANYTHING he asks. Just by counting my carbs faithfully I got my A1c down from 8.2 to 7.1 He normally will not accept anything higher than 7. You need to not only find a doc that you like, but one that will help and guide you to a better health. The long term effects of diabetes are not pleasant. I am now waiting for a kidney. I went on a pump (MM722) this past Monday, and even with Thanksgiving this week, my average BG has been 125. Good luck.
December 1, 2008 at 3:25 pm
I agree with Barry, I to had Doctors that could point the finger at me, telling me I was out of control and heading down the path of problems. I went to a nutritionist, who said ” why don’t you tell me aboout eating correctly and the diabetic diet, you probably know more than me” I could not believe that, when I told my wife, she gave me the name of her doctor, he was an internal medicne guy, not an Endo and everything has been going great since, about 10 years now. I started the pump last month and I am enjoying it, I do need to see a local Endo, but I have told him that I do not plan on giving up my current doctor.
Please look around your area for a Doctor that cares and is willing to help, they are out there.
Good luck,
Jamie
December 9, 2008 at 10:41 am
Trisha, I agree with the comments from both Barry and Jamie. I have been T1 for over 40 years now, and pumping for the last 26…I was one of the pioneers of pumping in a bygone era where we had limited insulin choices (none of them the short-acting ones like Humalog or Novalog), and the pump was the size of a brick (altho not quite as heavy). I got pregnant a week after starting the pump (I asked my endo at the time if it was truly an insulin-delivery system or a fertility device, lol). It has not necessariily been an easy row to hoe, but I can say that I have next to no complications (had peripheral retinopathy when I was pregnant, and laser surgery to correct before my daughter was born), my a1c averages 5.4 to 5.7, and I do not deny myself anything. Menopause has been a challenge, but my sugars have settled reasonably well now that the crazy hormones have settled, and I am definitely looking forward to the next phase of what life will bring.
I hope you will find a doctor who cares, is knowledgeable, and who will guide you to the resources so your life and dreams will be totally fulfillled. I have ad a relationship with my current endo for the last 35 years and I will absolutely devastated when he decides to retire (he’s having too much fun right now working with patients, and his son-in-law – who is a great endo in his own right – will take over the practice, so I’ll be well covered) You need your health so you can take care of your child, and any future children you may be blessed with. Also, if you can get your blood sugars into range, you will find your mental attitude and enthusiasm will improve by leaps and bounds. Take good care, and God bless.
Kathy